Long post! 😆 Anyways, here it is! First routine I tried from the intermediate group. So much work to do still but I’m having so much fun trying to get my dance legs back under me. 46 yr old mom of two girls, 3 and 8. Context: I’m a re-beginner! I was a ballet dancer, nearly went professional, but that was almost 30 years ago. I think I have knee pads older than some of you. Kayla’s post on IG today hit home about remembering to have fun. I quit because wasn’t having fun anymore and I didn’t even realize when I had lost that part of it. I had a back injury that sidelined me right when I was negotiating a promising future with the Joffrey Ballet. The director told me to rest and recover and lose 10 pounds. I’d been starving myself to weigh in at 110 on this frame (currently 145) so it was a f’ing struggle and that just crushed me. Popped my fun bubble that was already drifting towards a large pin called Unmanageable Job Stress and it took me nearly another 20 years to get over body issues and a weird inability to control my food without igniting a crazy binge eating stint. Glad that’s over! So I quit ballet, then found techno and got a job as a gogo dancer in a techno club in Prague in the 90’s then just stuck to techno from then on out. I loved it because it was dancing for just me and no one else… well, I was performing still- sort of- but it felt like it was on my terms. Anyways, to make short of a really long story, I wound up drifting more and more away from going out and dancing as I got older and had zero structured dancing for 30 years. It kind of devolved to step-touch, step-touch, hahaha! I decided to get back into it looking to challenge myself again, to use and build my brain back up, so I’ve been doing some ballet classes at home and signed up for the Bodylove app a few months ago. It has also coincided with another sort of awakening I’ve had recently this year. I’ve been a closeted erotica/romance writer for nearly 30 years as well and recently decided to say fuck that and let my sexiness out of the closet, cause why the fuck was it in there to begin with? Lots of digging around about permission and acceptance, etc. I love what’s coming out. The best thing is that so does my husband and we’ve become even closer for it. It has somehow spurred on this opening up of the deeper parts of ourselves, baring our true souls to each other and it’s…amazing. So thanks to this community for being a part of that. And thanks Kristin Rezina’s for your post yesterday, reminding me to use this app like it’s intended to be ;) Hi everybody! Thanks for being here.

Posted by Sarah Strange at 2023-12-01 00:35:09 UTC